yufen

2011-10-12T10:15:00.000-07:00

months since i came back here to rant and talk bout my life.

pretty much things happen within this few months. im really getting tired of all the bullshits im going through now.

i always thought and believe that for how much you gave in and give out will be equivalent to how much you will get back. but no, im facing this reality giving as much as i can but im getting shit. the pain that i used to get is nothing compared to this. never in my life for this 17years, ive cried so hard for this particular person. never in my life, ive love someone so much before, neither do i done so much things specially for a person. cause i thought these would worth all this and have this without regret. but no, i was wrong.

things didnt turn out to be in that way, rather it turn out to be in the reverse way. after so may years, i thought ' i must be blessed that we could finally be together!' NO! god dam, it just a dream. probably, im at fault in most way yes i know. ive regretted. after he left, ive got into a few relationship to make myself feel better but i just cant. till the end of the day, im back here, at the same spot, loving the same person. this person have the ability to make me smile and laugh for the whole day, also have the ability to make me insane. since the day i know that ive completely lost him, everyday is just like a nightmare to me. i had him in my mind for the whole day, and eventually i could easily get lost in my thought. i can forget my way to my workplace just like a person without a soul in it. almost to breakdown in the public. it was so painful, sometimes it was that pain that even tears cant express it.
for all the r/s i've get into, NONE could even compare with this.

i know, i know. i know that being a girl, she should be 'someone who need her' instead of 'she needing someone'. but until you are in my situation, you would understand. he used to put in so much effort to be with you, getting all the heartbreaks from you, seeing you hugging another guy infront of him but he still stand strong and determine to be with you, doing everything to make you feel happy. and then, due to some reason he left. it was my fault, and thats why im regretting it.

this love, such a painful yet memorable one.
another one year has passed, i doubt we would ever be together again. as much as i wish we could, but i know we can't. you have moved on, i've tried my best in asking you back but apparently someone who is much more better than me in terms of looks, figure and attitude caught your heart. being such a useless person, what im left with is just those memories. reminiscing all the memories alone, browsing through all the photos and messages all alone.

i had never regret falling for you, but ever regret for losing you.

3years plus, in this 3 years.
i know and believe that you're tired already. just wanna tell you,
believe or not, i've never stop loving you before.

2011-06-03T13:47:00.001-07:00

oh well,
im back to update this dead blog. LIKE FINALLY,
yeah! finally! :D

so basically,
as people around me knows that im having exams next week. or i should put it in a way that is almost the whole ITE is having exam? hahaha! yeah, trying to mug hard for exam. study and study, but i never fail to skip school. i dont know why, is either im really sick or i overslept. something wrong with my body alr! HAHAHA! :D

school was pretty awesome nowadays, together with patricia, abigail, yan ni and the rest. they were great! they never fail to make me laugh my ass off, stomach cramps as if the packs are coming out and till my tears come out. also my bros, calvin&elvin. irritating but awesome BROs<3

and yes!
been in contact with my mrPRECIOUS again. he, never fail, NEVER to make me feel comfortable & secure when im with him.though he might be irritating at times but he is always there when i needed someone to talk to and to lean on. He has never make me feel lonely and face problems alone before. for this 3years, he has been a GREAT friend or even more than a friend. (dont get the wrong idea ya) <3 though we do quarrel, but it wont last for long. i dont know why, but this is what happen. really glad to have him in my life<3

also,
shaneKUKUNEHNEH contacted me just now! we gonna have plans during holidays! (Y) happy max! i miss 4n2'10 damn lot! no joke! the fun we had, from different classes during sec 1 and 2 and come together as a not bonded class during sec3 camp. but eventually, we became the MOST BONDED CLASS i would say, in sec4. LOOKING FORWARD TO MEET THEM! this time round, class outing will be organise by shane! <3

oh yeah,
sadly i seldom hang out with the clique, 715. but i promise to meet them after my exam and chill out with them. miss all the fun & jokes we had together, though i didnt know them for long but they were all so great friends! FUNNY & CHEERFUL bunch of brothers together for years.

for now,
im REALLY happy with my life now. Awesome friends around me, Awesome family members being with me when i was down& any situantion im in, they will always been there.

especially my cousins!
it also has been weeks since we actually met & have fun. due to study and stuff like that, but after exam i gotta meet them all! :D and yesterday, cousin HARRISON was so funny! he texted me asking how am i and why am i like MIA in fb! hahahaha! cause he thought i deleted facebook after he told me he know and learn bout my life through facebook as we dont really see each other that frequent. HAHAHA! but the truth is, i has been studying man! HEE:D also, i heard that cousin HENRY has been hospitalised D: but i still dont know what really happen. shall contact cousin HARRISON tomorrow. for now, i hope that he would be okay man D:

TOMORROW'S PLAN!
town with sister and meina<3 to take their beast ALBUM!

so i will end this post with a quote,

It's all about quality of life and finding a happy balance between work and friends and family.
-Philip Green

2011-05-11T05:16:00.002-07:00

i doubt you are coming back anymore.

imissyou

2011-05-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

tell me that it isnt over,
tell me that you are turning back ,
tell me that things are changing,
tell me that im only dreaming.
i should have seen it coming ,
i couldnt let you go,
it hurts,
more than anything,
nothing could describe the pain.
but i doubt you would care,
for how much i wish you would come back,
i know you wouldnt want to.
i can see that you are better off with0ut me,
or probably another new partner.
i've totally no faith in myself thinking that i could keep you any longer,
i suppose this time would be the second and the last time i lost you.
you will never come back,
all the memories will be kept.
if one day you are coming back,
im still here.
the letter i wrote to you on our 100th days,
i still mean it..
iloveyou, alexpohGJ

2011-04-28T09:09:00.001-07:00

all the fun we had,
all the promises that we have made once again,
all the sorry that we have been saying to each other,
all the moment we spend together,
everything is gone.

i thought i can actually prepare for our first month, but i was just thinking too much. if study is the real and main reason that you are leaving, i wish you all the best.

i do miss you.
i choose to believe everything you say,
i choose to wait for that day to come and we shall see how again.
iloveyou...

2011-04-23T12:32:00.000-07:00

boyfriend,
i know you hate me saying sorry. but im sorry for all the things that i make you feel so pissed off, probably you have bottled up all this while and make you explode just now.
girlfriend promise you to change and change for the better. its hurts to hear you ranting all things out just now, for the first time. i will try my very best to change asap, in order to not disappoint you and not make you angry anymore.
its my fault, so dont apologise for making me cry. i do understand, all i need is you by my side. baby, iloveyou
i wont wanna lose you again, i will do whatever it takes to make you happy. also, i cant promise that i can solved all of your problem, but i can promise i would stay by your side no matter what happen.
thank you for forgiving me:D
iloveyou, babyboy.

2011-04-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW!
LESS THAN 24HOURS!
IM SO LAZY TO GO!
HOLIDAY MOOD STILL~

2011-04-06T13:56:00.000-07:00

HI :D
IM BORED!

imissyou...

2011-04-01T12:09:00.000-07:00

since im so bored, i shall just post a little thing here huh; as an update of my life.
so basically, those who were close to me knows that i just had a fail relationship again. YES , AGAIN!! god knows why? probably he aint meant to be in my life or not the right time to be in my life.
i've thought through, since things cant be changed then just let nature take it course yeah? im sick and tired of those crying life, thinking bout those stuff which is unchangeable, thinking back bout stuff that once happen. yes, its memories, but if its good memories, you wont be crying at one corner and reminisce.
Agree?
oh. so yes, my plan of the year.
PLAY&ENJOY while im still able to.
STUDY while my parent can still afford the school fee for me.
LAUGH to show off my dimple! LOL! (damn fake)-.-
cause i'll show you, who i am without you, and how much better i can live wthout guys.

2011-03-29T12:04:00.000-07:00

OH HELL!
i ps-ed si en, for like consecutively two days=x guilty max! but promised him to meet him went im back from hougang! always promised wilfred BFF to go meet si en together with him (Y)
so basically, today cousin drafrid came to my house and fetch me back to hougang. but slacked at my house first and even get a short afternoon nap at my house before leaving to hougang. left woodlands at around 6plus i suppose?
and reached ah ma house at around 7. reached ahma house for less than 10minutes jiu leave ahma house alr, off to meet kennBEAR at kovan melody slacked there, called baobeii see whether he is coming kovann melody not. but he isnt , so too bad D:
dine in at white tang today again! with kennBEAR,emma and jeremy. when we found out there is ants in the cup, bear called the waiter here and tell him what issue. guess what the waiter ask us, WHY GOT ANTS! -.- then give those attitude. nb! -.- the serivce today suck to the core la-.- then all of us is like !@$%^&* baked rice was sucks too!
after dinner, cab back to ahma house, told the taxi driver that we pay by nets when we reached, then he asked me and emma. WA! your want to spend 30cents more ah?! then we was like, our money or your money-.- fucking fucktard sia that taxi driver. i mean like, if we use nets, means we dont have cash or somehting liddat what? keep your comment to yourself la.
reached ahma house, and it starts the making me HAPPY, SAD, CONFUSED part. didnt want to elaborate much .
the end of today post! bye

2011-03-29T11:03:00.000-07:00

OMG!
im feeling totally messed up now. i was hesitating whether to text him, since he gonna be a freeman soon. i didnt expect him to reply me la. so we continued smsing for awhile updating each other bout our life. he's enjoying, glad to hear that,cause he got back his freedom like finally ya? our style of messaging was weird, more to politeness and courtesy instead of friends. he seems like trying to move away from me, so i decided to actually say lets chat next time. he agreed. its so weird. it was once he wanted to sms for the whole day, but it all just changed.
this is the reason why i didnt want to get to relationship now and then. i tend to trust and believe so god damn stupidily and easily. i tried to show you the hard side of mine, you said that you would change. i told you the exact reason why i wouldnt want a relationship, you say you wont be the same from my past. god damn i really believe in your sweet talks. i started let you walk into my life, and allow you to leave your foorprint in my heart. but i choose to hide it, cause i didnt want our relationship to end one day like now.the day you asked me what would you have to do to really get me, i told you i've alr been touched by you but i need time. and freaking shit, i thought things gonna be different this time round.
when we got together after i say umpteen times of i dont mind of your pasts,background and stuff. i really dont mind, i mean it. you treated me well, no doubt of you two timing of me or what. just perfect boyfriend thats all i could say, i didnt think so much of losing you, cause you assured me so.
2 weeks later, i woke up from a nightmare. it was a scene that you asked for break up. no joke, i cried. but i assure to myself, no this wont happen. as you assured me with this for umpteen time that you wont leave. in the afternoon, when we suppose to have a date on that day at 4, you suddenly say that you have got to go for reporting 430. and i reply you with a -.- , and you asked for a breakup.
for that second, i was shocked and broke down. i was awake from everything, everything wasnt that beautiful fro the start. you lied, i know. but i aint gonna say. i begged,cried like crazy,just to ask you back but you say no giving your reason with you didnt want me to suffer for your act. i dont mind, but yooou still rejected.
days past, we didnt contact each other. during those days it was hell to me, i even turn to do stupid stuff. finding ways to ease the pain my heart, the most immature way but the most effective way-slitting of wrist. yes, it was god damn CHILDISH,MORON,BULLSHIT,IMMATURE,OLD-FASHIONED.but it really ease the pain in my heart.
stupid enough, i went to see a doctor day after as i didnt attend school. the doctor saw the wound when feeling my pulse. he asked whether did something happen able to share. i rejected his concern. i remembered, you said if i ever slit my wrist you would slit the whole arm for me to see. that was when you care for me. so it was an addiction, everytime when im seriously missing you, penknife was the first that came into my mind. cause it was the closest link to our memories. IT WAS GOD DAMN stupid.
time after, because i have to keep wearing long sleeve to go out, i gave out on slitting of wrist. whenever i cant get to sleep, i would at least pop 3tablets of unknown medicine in my house down the throat in order to make myself to feel tired and not to think so much and sleep.
one day when i came across your facebook, i've alr guess so. she's the girl. it hurt even deeper when i saw those hearts posted on your wall. i've decided to get you out of my mind, deleting all the sweet messages from you which i read everynight before i go to bed.
and then chalet, heart to heart talk with trusted friends.back then, missing you so i texted you but you didnt reply. so i totally make up my mind to let you go. drink and drink to wash you off my brain and heart. heard that you and the person who you get him to get my number, quarrel was once because of me. i was quite happy?! i know crazy, cause this shows that you care.
but afterall, we still broke up and your heart aint here anymore. so continued drinking, but drinking makes me think of you again. coming down to woodlands and drink with me.
till 11plus, you accompanied me all the way to hougang under ahma's house downstair. we slacked there for hours and then i went up to ah ma house, and you go to hougang plaza. so today, you gonna be a freeman.
im wishing you all the best for the upcoming stuffs in your life, no more foolish stuffs boy.
cause you know, yufen is here for you no matter what. after you,
NO MORE LOVE.
NO MORE SWEET TALKS.
NO MORE BELIEVEING
& TRUST SO EASILY.

imy

Thank you for the sweet memories(:

iloveyou

2011-03-28T14:40:00.001-07:00

oh yes,
please know this people.
i am the only person who have the rights to choose my friends, who i want to go out with.
dont tell who to hang out with or not, dont tell me how you used to treat me or shit stuff like that. im not those type of people who have new friends and forget bout old friends. stupid fool, if you think that i am those type. this shows how much you know bout me huh?
i have enough of this,being stuck in the middle dont know which way or side to go. both side are my friends. hey come on, its not that i can only have 1 group of friend can. its not like i didnt meet you at all, or i didnt even try or initiate to meet you okay? OMG!
GOD KNOWS HOW SUCKS TO BE STUCK IN THE MIDDLE!

and yes,
im enjoying my life now. dont POKE YOUR NOSE into my LIFE now.

2011-03-28T14:29:00.000-07:00

WEE~
been a month since i've blogged ya! didnt really get the mood to post a blog :x so basically, go to school to go , skipping of school, slack is my daily routine.

had a recent class chalet with my ITE classmates was pretty fun:D didnt regret to go down as i have second thoughts of going down to the chalet on that day. chitchat with quite a few of them, much fun even though we were just chatting and tonning. TC'11 were great(: getting crazy together. meanwhile i kinda miss my 4n2'10 la, those fun we have D: but well, both different class have different types of fun. <3

after chalet, went to met up with 715. ton! much fun also, cracked lots of jokes especially with the history& legends! make me laugh until my tummy cramp at mac!

life was pretty fun nowadays:D

HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS!

still have loads of projects to do. gonna chiong despite of the laziness! OMG!
JIAYOU YUFEN <3

2011-02-10T03:43:00.000-08:00

omg !
i hate it when those people who like to text people bout bullshits stuff , especially those sensitive stuff .
just grow up uh .
got no attention from anyone else then stay at home la . use people phone & sms the other person fun ah ? nonsense shit -.-

2011-01-29T08:14:00.000-08:00

back to post again :D
okay ! was enjoying this two days (:
on the friday , 280111 .
went to ECP with the School Of Business & Serivce Skills (college west nia) for sand castle building , everyone must be thinking how old still build castle -.- okay , starting i also liddat think . but if you really did participate , it is really fun uh :D
my team the sand castle is like so cool huh ! pyramid shape , with underground carpark ! first level , reception .
second level is room , third level , entertainment room , fourth level is sky garden .
beside the building , there is a aeroplane & helicopter landing point , as the top view of the whole building (including the entrance) is like a human face with a afro hair (:
damn cool right?
hahahah ! really enjoyed :D now i super love building sand castle uh :D did had fun with classmates (Y) hee !
after the whole event , call-ed cab then send sarah to her bf house then cab back home . costed me 32bucks-.- faints huh !
okay , reached home .
chitchat a little with sister , then went to bathe . daddy came home and fetch me also sister , then drop me at admiralty . train-ed to somerset to meet kenn and co . (: waited for them at 313 outside cotton for like 20 mins la ! like an idiot ! hahaha !
so went shopping at town , jokes as always (: went penisular too , also NEX after that . proceed on to kovan melody , went to slack there with kenn bearBEAR , liyan , emma , gil and brendan . was fun ! (:
back home to grandma house to stay overnight :D crap with drafrid cousin till 3 plus and fall asleep :D

& today ,
wake up at 10 plus in the morning by cousin drafrid cause he bought breakfast for us (: ate & blahblahblah !
went for pedicure , happy with the result !
went kovan melody again , slacked with the same old people (: rainy day today D:
dine in at white tangerine with live band singing infront of us (: wonderful , make everyone happy happy (:
& cab back to gradma house ! cousin meina lost her phone -.- alamak !

2011-01-25T07:22:00.000-08:00

imissyou

2011-01-09T09:09:00.000-08:00

tomorrow !
oh no , is later on !
7 more hours to school starts D:
okay , im seriously not prepared for school !
im not prepared to make new friends !
im not prepared to be alone on the first day !
hope everything gonna be fine for me !
ALL THE BEST TO ME !

2011-01-05T05:55:00.000-08:00

listening to one in a million , missingyou ...

i thought that i was strong , i thought once i survived through the first night i'll be fine . i thought im okay , but when im alone , im not okay AT ALL .
when i really started to fall for you even deeper ,
everything fall apart . it was me to ended this , cause i dont want you to suffer that much ..
i wanted to tell you how much imissyou , but i cant do that anymore . in this 12 days , you never fail to make me happy , knowing that im not okay when i say im okay , everything . you were really great .
but , we aint meant to be .
imissyou ,
miss you sending me home ,
miss you accompanying me to bring miki down for a walk ,
miss you talking on the phone ,
miss you saying iloveyou on the phone ,
miss you making me laugh or smile even i attitude you ,
all i can do is just missing you ,
no more turning point , isn't it ?

maybe its even wrong to fall for you ...

2011-01-04T07:33:00.000-08:00

True love will never fade unless it was a lie.

2011-01-02T22:54:00.000-08:00

oh man oh man !
its raining again ! boring !
morning rain , afternoon rain , night better dont rain lorhh .
super sian sia !
wtf wtf !
hahaha!

oh yes,
anyway , friends & loves ones will be starting school tomorrow alr . sec 5 , study hard loves ! (: you guys can do it okay ? gonna see you guys after school tomorrow ! lets talk bout first day of school tomorrow okay ? (:

and then ,
those people who are tagging , please put your name-.-
pissed off

2010-12-31T11:23:00.000-08:00

YAY !
its 010111 !
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE :D
you guys went for countdown ? oh yes , i had a great time with my baby and clique at marina barrage ! (:
so lets starts with the very start of 311210 , the last day of 2010 !
as usual , i woke up at around 12 plus automatically . ( want to get some more sleep also cannot , just cant get back to sleep -.- ) went wash up and bathe , bathe hao at around 1pm . morning call vernon , then use lappy all the way until 2 ! morning call baby (: he sounds cute when he just wake up eh ! haha !
after that , off lappy , preparing to go out . open the door , IT RAIN ! -.- so stay at home until 240 liddat ? went off to meet baby with my orange umbrella (: meet him outside his house then we went to 714 to slack while waiting for the rain to get smaller .
until 310 , i think ? baby and i went to admiralty mac to meet the rest (: left admiralty at around 4 . trained to marina bay , took shuttle bus to marina barrage . reached marina barrage , met up with kaicong , pikiam and the rest . cant remember who was there ! LOL . managed to get ourselves a place to sit down ! near to the stage too (: watch them fly kite , joke and everything . it was really fun (:
skipskip ,
and then 2 more mins to 0000 , everyone get so hyper ! then 3, 2 , 1 ! HAPPY NEW YEAR ! looking at those beautiful fireworks with baby was great (: after the countdown , we went off . shuttle bus to tanjong pajar ! then trained back to admiralty , when we were in the train . many many funny things happen , laugh non stop for everyone ! when jeremy is alighting at somerset , many of them shout "BYE JEREMY ! HAPPY NEW YEAR ! byebyebye ! " then the reaction of jeremy was damn funny ! and the rest of the passenger was like laughing , some staring ! LOL !
totally JOKE (:
reached admiralty , walked to woodlands mart ! supper at mac ! (: joke with baby was fun too :D after eating , baby jiu send me home . cause mummy ask me go home early , and he gonna play dota so he is afraid that im might get bored ! on the way back home , i keep laughing like a dingdong ! and baby even thought that i laugh is fake de , WTF ?! haha !

reached home at 0307 ! & LOHWEIHAO is dota-ing now ! LOL
(:
the end of today !

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! 2011 !

2010-12-28T08:55:00.000-08:00

today today today !
woke up at around 12plus with stomach cramp -.- couldnt go back to sleep ! so use lappy all the way until baby wake up :D
met up with baby at around 4 plus , then went to meet clique at woodlands mart ! slacked ! then accompany baby to eat at 6 plus . then went to hall to slack .
then proceed on to bball court ! baby played bball while me playing itouch ! play until no battery , then watch baby play bball ! totally joke when they play bball ! :D super funny sia .
baby send me home at around 1015pm , then he pei me bring miki down walkwalk ! chitchat with him (: so super fun :D baby super joke !
wow 750 lehh ! *hor baby hor ! *
lol !
after bringing miki go walk walk , then baby send me home and he went off ! while walking away , he keep shouting BYEBYE ! like siao liddat ?! LOL
(:
okay , end for today's post !

ILOVELOHWEIHAO ! ♥

2010-12-26T08:01:00.000-08:00

yes !
im back to post again !
so where did i stop in the previous post ? like me take a look ! (:
*open new tab of www.fenloves.blogspot.com*
oh yes !
lets continue from there huh !

so ...
santa claus was great ,
he gave me a BIGBIG present (: which is LOHWEIHAO (:

lets continue ,
woke up alr , meet baby♥ under my block !
then off to woodlands mart to meet his clique (: slacked at woodlands mart !
around 4 plus 5 in the afternoon ,
went to crescent ,
baby and co . went to bball , me & vernon was chatting ! then rain come & go , come & go ! pissed off ! hahaha !
so all the way at crescent until 6 ? i think ? then we left , proceed to woodlands mart . met up with yuan on the way (: rain gets heavier when we were reaching block 722 , so baby and i RUN !!! run a little only =x hahahaha !
so sit at dont know what block downstair awhile , then clique went to lan while baby & i go and grab our dinner (: after our dinner , we went up to lan and find them ! saw yang xinganbaobeiiERZII all :D slacked at lan until 745 , baby♥ sent me home cause i have to meet sister at 8 for dinner at grandma hosue !
ITS CHRISTMAS EVE !
cab down to grandma house , this year was pretty bored (: but with some conversation with baby , its so great (: drinking session with godma , fun fun .
but everyone think that im drunk , but im not ! just that im very red ! LOL ! skipskipskip ! overnight at grandma house ! :D

251210 (MERRY CHRISTMAS)
met up with baby♥&co . at around 8 plus outside bubble tea shop (: slack slack slack . i forget what happen -.-
highlight of the day ,
mummy say im grounded !
but ..
she say this time she forgive me , so ..
am i grounded now or not ? LOL .
oh , and mummy saw baby & i ?
this is so confusing ? hahahahaha !
whatever ~

today !
was rotting at home all the way !!!!
pizza for dinner , SISTER's TREAT ! (Y)
met up with baby for awhile (:
then , he sent me home like everyday ! til my doorstep ! until i lock my door , then he leave (: sweets (:
now ,
im waiting for him to call me ! <3

tomorrow having interview for my course , hope everything goes well huh !

2010-12-23T08:55:00.000-08:00

21dec2010
woke up at 1000 in the morning , morning call yasir ! get prepared for classouting :D left home at around 1120 , met up with haolian & kukunehneh at the bus stop . bus-ed to admiralty , met up with the guys . went to shop & save to get snacks for picnic ! & it costed us like around $50.50 ! after that , train-ed to marina bay and met joan at the marina bay shuttle bus (:
reached marina barrage , some went to buy drinks & kite . while my side , we went up and get ourselves a space :D put the mat and everyone settled down there . flying of kite , chit chat , running everything ! so fun! oh yes , taking of picture (: memories kept !
so the weather become cloudy so we went down ! we played poker , murderer with the whole group ! so fun :D and then , we ordered 6 pizza ! no la , cause its 1for1 ! its costed LIKE AROUND $114 ? then eat eat !
&
group photo alr ! then went off with shaik meimei , jahangir & zamri ! D: feeling so bad to leave the rest so early D:
so ..
i train-ed to hougang , and then cab down to ehub ! met up with LOHWEIHAO ! then we went to buy shampoo for chalet and after that accompany him to eat at popeye (: then go to the chalet ! :D
WONDERFUL CHALET !

22dec2010
wake vernon up cause almost everyone wake up , preparing to check out le ! then wait for LOHWEIHAO to wake up also . left aranda at 1000 , went to eat then cab back admiralty . reached admiralty , then vernon went to meet yongkiat . so LOHWEIHAO send me home , shun bian play with miki (: then he went home .
went to bathe then train down to amk ! meet cousin melissa at macdonald , babyKENJI was there too (: accompany eat mac , then went to get my pedicure done with cousin melissa(: super like it ! 3D flower !! spend 2 hours there , it costed us $140 for both ! mine is only $30 but cousin melissa's is $110 (:
haha .
after pedicure ,
went to cousin melissa's house for dinner ! stay at there until 9 , went to amk hub . shop shop at ntuc then cab!
drop cousin melissa first . then drop myself at my house then sister & cousin meina went to bukit panjang ! (:
went home , sleep ! (:

23dec2010 ,
woke up at 3 plus ! met up with LOHWEIHAO at 4 plus under my block , went to grab our lunch at koufu (: bernard at the newpapers shop there , then we meet vernon outside bubble teashop . went up to second floor to slack ! left woodlands mart around 6 ? then go 715 bball court , watch them play bball . slack slack ! until 1050 , LOHWEIHAO send me home . then pei me bring miki go downstair walk walk (: then after that , send me home again !
now ON THE PHONE WITH HIM (:

end of post !

2010-12-20T09:53:00.000-08:00

telling myself umpteen times that you ain't mine anymore,
telling myself umpteen times that i shouldn't love you anymore ,
telling myself umpteen times that i shouldn't miss you anymore ,
telling myself umpteen times that we dont belong to each other ,
telling myself umpteen times that everything cant be changed ,
telling myself umpteen times that everything is over ,
telling myself umpteen times we cant start afresh anymore .
i've tell myself all this ,
i've been telling myself .
but you just cant get out of my mind ,
everything about us just cant get out of my mind .
i think of our past , i smiled . i thought i've get over you . but no , i was wrong .
please tell me that you are doing fine ,
so i will be fine too .
imissyou ..

2010-12-20T09:02:00.000-08:00

(Y)
im back from town with tansien !
met up at around 4plus at his house , and then train to orchard . went to lucky plaza to change money first , then go walk around in town ! :D
i get my express pedicure done with only the cost of 18bucks at fareast ! and tansien get his agnes B tshirt at the price of 106bucks with 15% discount at wisma ! cool or what ? made alot of joke today , MUCH LAUGHTER whenever we meet up :D best korhhkorhh EVER <3
oh yes , we dine in at xinwang hk cafe at ion ! super full ! went out of the cafe with a bloated tummy , nearly vomit out ! haha !
left town at around 1030 , home at 11plus ! tired max ! D:

tomorrow gonna wake up early at around 10 , gonna morning call yasir & shane up ! AS WE ARE HAVING OUR CLASSOUTING ! baik ! :D haolian & kukunehneh gonna meet me at my house , and then off to admiralty to meet up with the guys . then buy tibits, snacks & drink for picnic , cause i dont think anyone has the time to prepare food for the picnic ! LOL . so we gonna buy at shop & save or even prime mart , lets see how !
then train down to marina bay and bus to marina barrage ! and have fun at marina barrage , slack slack , chitchat gnna have as much fun as possible ! :D 4n2 (: maybe not the whole 4n2 , but with those who are free ! especially my loves ones who will be coming :D yay yay ! alkaline bud , yasir , shane , kexin , naqib and many many more ! hee ! gonna take many picture since we might not know when will we meet up again .
and after having picnic , i will be rushing down to chalet to meet up with vernon and co . overnight there , and coming home on wednesday ! if im able to meet up with emma , and im off to malaysia ! :D shall see how with the malaysia , still not confirm !
hee !

seeya readers

2010-12-18T05:52:00.000-08:00

this gonna be a emo post ,
you can just skip today post alr .
im just here to rant everything out .

yea , we have broke up . for like almost 2 months , you have move on & enjoying alr. you have already put a fullstop in our love story and putting a Capital letter in another . I hope you are doing fine now , since i would not be able to contact you . No idea , what happen . But since you have already make the choice , i dont blame you .
Maybe this is what i get after it , & you have gone through it . Now i know how it feels , im not going to say im going to holding neither will i say im letting go . As long as my love stand strong , i'll be here .
If you are looking at this : precious , do takecare of yourself . remember what i've said to you in the past .

2010-12-18T05:13:00.000-08:00

Basically i'm stuck at home for the whole day, cause i have a deal with CPP to stay at home with only two of us !
So , i woke up at around 3 plus ! and then use lappy for the whole day ! from 3 plus till now 9 plus , still continue using ! Dont know what to do liao , so damn fucking bored !
im so freaking bored now D:
how ?

2010-12-17T11:34:00.000-08:00

alright !
i think i should update a proper post instead :D

so so so !
i woke up at 1230 sharp ! without LOHWEIHAO's morning call :D *proud . and then proceed on with necessary stuff , after that watch show while waiting for my haolian & kukunehneh to reach my house !
when they reached together with XIAOMAYI ,
talk cock awhile and then haolian help me & kukunehneh to spray our hair ! really JOKE just now :D keep laughing when spraying hair , cause its so damn itchy la ! & that dumb dumb XIAOMAYI stand one side and laugh at us ! *punch her ! oh yes , before i forget OR-LING ONG came under my block to meet us too :D
hee hee !
so happy to see them !
went to school ALR ! see many many many friends :D so duper happy !
okay , went to hall .
then stupid briefing make me & ballball so sleepy lorhh , but managed to stay awake & listen to all the important stuff eh . after much briefing , then announcing the top students in our school ! great ! :D * claps for them ! so cool lorhh ! hahaha !
one of it is jessica , okay ! *3cheers for her :D
&
FINALLY ,
releasing of n level result !
make my heart pound like 10000000000000000 times faster than normal . even though i have already prepared for the worst ! LOL im the first to take the result in my class (: when i get my result , im like WOW ! happy max , better than i've expected. even some people may think that 'EMB3 - 19' is just a pass , but to me its good enough :D
didnt expect to pass my maths ! surprised ! but didnt managed to go back sec 5 , principal dont want me , she say not advisable to go sec 5 & i didnt attend bridging lesson , so NONO sec5 for me D: okay then ..
so classmates keep asking bout my result since im the first one , not only me , classmates too didnt expect me to get such grade cause i didnt really study hard for my N level . so went chitchat around with friends , then the whole sec 4N not in their line le . all walk around , using phone and all this . friends asking around bout result . told LWH , DADDY , CPP & KEITH bout my result !
seeing friends around me crying because of their result isnt that great , makes me so sad . yes , sad ! you know , you can see them studying so hard for n level , holding such a big hope that they will pass n level . but unfortunately , they didnt . well , FRIENDS ! CHEER UP ! MAYBE ITE IS EVEN BETTER THAN SEC5 OK ?!
oh yes , back to the topic .
after leaving school ,
slack at woodlands mart awhile , went up to fann salon . but they were busy , so i tell them i will go back later on in the night & they say they will wait for me but i didnt turn up =x opps ! went home after that , bathe & then sit down , took out all my admission booklet & everything . writing every course that im eglible for , then discuss with haolian . but awhile only lorhh D: cause she is busy ! then while writing down what course im eglible for , LWH call me , and then we talk bout course course thing!
until 7 plus ,
vernon ring me up , and say he reached my house downstair ! so hang call with LWH , then then rush down to meet VERNON . he accompany me to have dinner at woodlands mart , ate just a little ! no appetite D: then dabao food for CPP , went home to give her .
went to meet LWH after that with VERNON , chitchat & slacked near circle green . and then LWH need to go off le , so me & vernon went to 883 shop n save to take some money from shop n save . but somehow , i dont know what ? vernon is unable to get back his money , so no choice , left shop n save.
went to meet KHENGYUAN ! :DDD
so long never see him liao sia :D slacked with him until 1040 liddat , and then VERNON send me home .
reached home ,
stressing what course to go ! ARGH !
but i would definately take service skill (tourism) but the other choice lehh ?
oh man !

and and ,
now talking crap with JAMES SEAH ! he want me to blog bout him , so i put this tiny minni space for him ! LOL!
JAMES SEAH FEEL HONOURED !

i saw you and her today , i know i have to face both of you today ,
i hope you are doing fine now .
cause i'll be praying that you are doing fine in your life .

im going to crack my brain tomorrow & decide what course by tomorrow when CHAN MIMI is home! (: & then register online alr ,
if not i'll be busy the next few days .
sunday , should be slacking day ?
monday will be going to malaysia ! :D
tuesday , chalet :D
wednesday then come back from chalet ! & wednesday is the deadline for registration , so just get it done by monday !
CHEERS ! :D

2010-12-17T08:02:00.000-08:00

so ,
i went to take my n level result today !
yes ,
so unexpectedly , i got 19 points for mt EMB3 .
decided to go to ite nitec ,
tourism !!
but ,
i dont know lehh !
howhowhow ?
stress !

2010-12-16T10:18:00.001-08:00

LOH WEI HAO YOU BASTARD BABI!
I HATE YOU FOR ASKING ME TO SHUT UP ! :P
PUNCH YOU WHEN WE MEET UP ! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

&
stop being so bhb okay okay okay !
hate you !
i know whats uincorn okay ! and there is REAL unicorn just that they have no wings ! noob ! :D
okay ,
getaway plan 2011 ! LOL !
my eye also not pain liao !
BEING RANDOM ! :D

OTP WITH YOU NOW ASSHOLE ! :D

2010-12-16T02:03:00.000-08:00

im back to post again !
realised something new in my blog ? yeah man , i've changed a new blogskin :D think too long never change blogskin le , starting when i see the code im like , " omFg , whats all this ?!"
haha !
but after that , im okay alr , manage to finish the whole thing ! :D
okay ! so what i did today ?
hmmmm,
oh ya ! woke up at 9 to meet that stupidd OYSTER loh wei hao to help him buy thing ! then slacked awhile , then he send me home ! & he went for his sentosa trip .
reached home , went back to sleep at around 10 plus . and wake up at 2 plus called my LIMHAOLIAN for tomorrow meetup :D so looking forward to tomorrow (:
okay , so basically im staying at home the whole day . my aim today is to clean up the house ! BUT ITS 630 in the evening , & I STILL DIN DO ANYTHING TO THE HOUSE ! maybe a bit later eh ? haha ! im so lazy now ! =x
the end of my post today !
will try to post more from today on ! hahahaha

2010-11-28T02:42:00.001-08:00

found this on tumblr ..

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

___________________________________________________

Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig

imstillwaitingforyoutocomeback...

2010-11-17T09:00:00.000-08:00

a short conversation brighten my day (:
it might mean nothing to you , but dear ,
it means alot to me .
trying to be happy when chatting with you is difficult .
so you ont hate to talk to me .
iloveyou still ..

HELLOKITTYLOVES

2010-11-16T11:35:00.001-08:00

okay ! so im back to blog !
so far , i've recieved four advanced birthday present from 2 people (: both hello kitty ! THUMBSUP ! (:
first is build a bear hello kitty & hello kitty bling bling watch from chanMIMI! hahahahha ! :)
&
secondly ,
HELLO KITTY towel & hello kitty LED light from KEITH! (: the towel & led light costed him $63.10 ! super expensive la ! he gave me his debit card as he is working so ask me go buy my hello kitty things . and i bought those thing , end up he still tell me not very expensive ! punch your face man ! hahahaha !
hee .
&
my chan PP bought me hello kitty jelly (: super love ! hahaha ! haven eat it , cant bear to open ! so its still nicely unsealed in my fridge ! haha.

yes ,
i know they are trying to make me happy (: thanks alot loves one ! really appreciated .

still , like what CPP told me .
break up is the most painful thing on earth you would ever feel ..
& i really dont want this to happen ..

2010-11-09T08:05:00.000-08:00

yufen ,
you're nobody now .
yufen ,
you're nothing to him now .
yufen ,
you have no position to say anything now .
yufen,
no matter how much you think , it has no use alr .
yufen ,
you are nobody to get jealous .
yufen ,
you are nothing to her .
yufen ,
you might be thinking too much .
yufen ,
he might still come back to you .
yufen
yufen
yufen ,
i just feel like stabbing you now ! CHAN YUFEN ! FUCK YOU & STOP THINKING!

2010-11-07T06:54:00.001-08:00

miss you , fuck my life !

2010-11-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

RWS > VIVO > DINNER > SLACKED @ SKY PARK > PHOTO TIME & HOME @ 1 PLUS AM

find myself like a fool , really an idiot .
having the tears in the eyes yet have to hold on & tell myself not to cry .
heard any passerby ringtone is love the way you lie , i started looking around thinking it will be you .
you told me you couldnt take it & you didnt give me the chance to change . im the one who say stop clinging on you . but i regret , & its too late .

it suppose to be a promise ,
no more drinking , no more piercing .
but , i should know that we are no longer specially related .
you have every rights to do everything , but it really hurts to see you back into that stage .
& that message kills me .

2010-11-02T11:55:00.000-07:00

updating my blog again , but not for you guys .
but YOU ,

今天
十一月三日
凌晨三点零七分，
又在一个人的时候，当门已关上，当灯已关上后，人也累了。不禁想起了你，不是说平常都没有在想你，但不知为何特别想你。
有无数的话想对你说，但又不知道要入和开口。
已经过了十一天了，
你需要的时间够了吗？我不想再等，也不想再一个人过。一个人过日子好辛苦你知道吗？im trying my best to salvage this relationship . i swear that i cherish this relationship , i really dont wish to put a fullstop to mark an end to this r/s .
you know that isnt it ?
friends & family are asking bout you , can you tell me how am i suppose to reply them ? you know it makes me an idiot when im crying when i look at our photos and reminisce on our past. i should be smiling when im looking at our photos , but no.
time spent between each other are getting lesser , & i miss you alot . i cant find any words to describe how much im missing you .
it hurts alot when i try to take the first step & you choose to move back , it hurts to see that your phone wallpaper is no longer us , & it hurt even more when you ask me not cry .
you used to see how i fall , you are the one who pull me up & out from the misery . youknow better than anyone else how fragile , how weak i am . are you going to make me fall ?
tell me that you're not leaving , will you ?

2010-10-26T03:49:00.001-07:00

FUCK YOU , YOU BLOODY CB !

2010-10-19T11:34:00.000-07:00

okay ,
see this dumby idiot up there !
Name : Lynette Chen Hui Min
Nickname : nana
Yufen's xinganBFsista
okay ,
know this girl for like 2years7months&19days ! on this girl's birthday (:
was quite close with her when we first know each other , right idiot ? haha
then , when day goes by , we drifted !
but i still love her as before okay !
whenever we see each other , we will molest each other !
we will kp each other ! thats for sure (:
i dont know why ? but its our style !
for only some of the people know , we do have conflict .
but till the end of the day , we are still back (:
*sounds like couple right ?
this girl has been there when i needed someone to talk to .
she was the one who i can talk till i cry =x
she was the one who edited "IF I WERE A BOY" song , just for me !
to summarise , she is my damn best never regret sista i ever had !
&
not to forget , her cats' eyes can scare the hell out of me when we were sharing bout ghost stories !
we seldom talk , but when we start talking !
we will be like those people who talk like they never talk for years :D
haha!

LYNETTE CHEN HUI MIN !
iloveyou ;D
no matter what , xinganGFsista is here for you !
muacks !

2010-10-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

its complicated ~

2010-10-14T10:56:00.000-07:00

now ,
im in your older post in your fb . thatt was how sweet you were , to 'like' every of my spamming post saying ily ..
and all the quiz that show my name as the answer ..
just like :
-Who do you love?
RACHELCHANYUFEN , it may not be stable yet , but the love would be forever . (11may , 11.25pm)
-OMG . Baby waited for me for 4hours while i'm dota-ing . SORRY . (16MAY , 5.21am)
-If you could marry anyone in the world who would it be ?
Yufen! (26may , 12.57am)
-i spammed your fb with 'imissyou baby !!'
and you replied ' i miss you too :) '
-you posted :' ILOVECHANPOKPOK ! '24 JUNE , 3.36AM )
are we gonna be like the past , when you would mind what i like & dislike ?
waiting for your changes..

2010-10-14T09:32:00.000-07:00

you know what , boy .
you remember that day ? that day you confessed to me ? yes , that disappointing day to you . imissthatday . that day , you showed me how important i am to you . that day , you showed me how much i have been cherished by you . that day , you showed me there is still you for me to rely on . that day , you showed me you love me & me ,
i miss those day that i can feel your love , i miss those days when you think of my feeling in whatever you're doing , i miss those days when you tell me how much you miss me & how much you love me , i miss those days when you make an effort to wake up in the morning just to meet me , i miss those sweet surprise you had for me , i miss those sweet goodnight message from you .
i'll never forget that day we were tgt , but unofficially . we were so happy , finally we have no more problem being tgt . the sweet smile on our face .
but now ?
i will leave it to you to think . if you think what you're doing now is cool , baby . let me tell you : no , its not cool at all . turn around & im still here ...
imissyou ,
now even i tried to talk to you nicely , you still treat me like a thrash . you might not think so , but i do

2010-10-14T08:34:00.001-07:00

& suddenly ,
it hurts alot

2010-10-14T08:17:00.001-07:00

it aint gonna be the same unless you get rid of that shity

2010-10-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

you are the one who broke the promise .
but why am i the one crying down here ?
must i really say something out that i really dont want to ?
and why are you the one who you think you did nothing wrong ?
stop being such a da nan ren ?
all you know is what you want , but you have never thought bout how i feel .
you have never thought bout all those consequences .
and i dont get it ,
you asked me , i say no . and you say okayy .
next moment ?
you did it .
you apologised ,
my question to you is ' WHAT FOR APOLOGISING WHEN YOU DID IT ON PURPOSELY?' , are you telling me that my words meant nothing to you ? or you are trying to pick a fight ? HUH?!
i had enough , from your laziness to your attitude , from your attitude to your broken promises . so can you tell me whats coming up next ?
i keep to all our promises , and you ? break our promises . so what do you want from me ?
you said i am more important than that thing , but you just refuse to take it out . it doesnt make any sense !
its different fromm what you told me in the past , its not i've change . you make it change ,
you are the one who make this so complicated . and now , i feel so insecure

i dont know , you just got got me into the past .
& i hate this feeling

2010-10-09T11:15:00.000-07:00

post for my babyLOVE !
baby , time for each other will become lesser . do takecare of yourself when you're not in woodlands . but as promised , you gonna come back everyday to meet me ! right ? okay , i kinda miss you alot now ):
from today on , honey cant ask mummy to wake you up le . you gonna learn how to wake up on your own okay ? working life might be tough for you , but do remember honey is always here to support you . when you're tired , i'll help you massage . when you're upset , honey will be here to listen to you . when you're hungry , honey will try to get something for you to eat .
baby ,
honey do miss you . and you also promised that , you gonna sms me everytime ! whenever you are unable to meet me in woodlands , honey will go there and meet you .
dont keep playing , must work okay ? baby gonna move back asap , so that we wont be so far apart okay ?
honey gonna wait for baby to move back and meet baby everyday ! honey's heart gonna be with baby wherever you are . i know yours too right ? even though its a torture for me , but there's no way out already .
ohh ya , you still owe me lots of movies , shopping , trip to waterfront and stairway to heaven . i'll wait for you to bring me there .
remember ,
do takecare of yourself , sleep in the night not MIDNIGHT ! drink plenty of water . rest whenever you can , dont always eat heaty and junk food .
also ,
remember ,
honey is here for you , no matter what . honey gonna support you when there is any setback . honey gonna love you forvever , honey gonna miss you every seconds , honey's heart is yours already .

iloveyou babyLOVE !

2010-09-30T04:28:00.000-07:00

heyo ! back to this blog again ! ;D
currently at RP again ! (: doing chem and maths worksheet , so the happy cos got many things to do and to keep me occupied (:
finished chem worksheet and now doing maths worksheet , like shity liddat lorhh . quite a few ni dont know how to do lehh . howhowhow ? hees .
baby did art , and now he went with kartig throw me alone ): haha ! hopefully he will continue doing uh ! JIAYOU smelly baby ;D

oh ya , school today is okay . just that babyLOVE didnt attend school ! ): have much fun with classmates , cos last 2 days liao . i got so hyper when i shouted " YOU SIAO AH ? PREGNANT AH ?" hahaa !
okay , dont know what to post le ! post next time !

LOVES baby EDSEL (:

2010-09-28T06:34:00.000-07:00

WEEHOO !!!
im currently at rp using babyLOVE's lappy (: came here for like two days , today & ofcos yesterday . with the same people , yuan , babyLOVE & kartig .
motive to come to rp for yesterday is to study !
but today , it is becos babyLOVE say RP very fun to slack & play dota -.- so yuan , babyLOVE & kartig brought their lappy for dota session and ME , study lorhh ! but didnt really study much today , im so freaking tired la . looking at the ten year series topical maths assessment , both my eye become smaller & smaller !
ahahaha !
fell asleep after attempting to some maths question , continued when i wake up ;D and the other three did nothing but to DOTA ! :@

okay , long time no post bout school stuff huh ?
met baby as per normal !
had hip hop dance for PE ! last pe session with 4n2 ! touching speech by mr mok ! and really had much fun during pe , even though the dance a little WTF ! prefer CIMO CIMO lorhh ;D
and then study study study .
after school , slack a little . bought things home & did necessary stuff .
met up with baby & friends , OFF TO RP ;DD
and its now 2142 , , babyLOVE keep pestering me to return his lappy to him ): so byebye !

♥EDSEL , babyLOVE

2010-09-19T09:46:00.001-07:00

im done with my physics homework ! haha ! its has been a long time since i do homework okay ! hahaha ! crazy me ;D
i also dont know wha to say ! hmmmm , oh ya ! just saw my report book that was in my bag , dont know how to give mummy sign ): deproved damn f. lots uh , but tml must pass up le . so how ? hees . i think just like last time de style , put on table & go to sleep ;D hopefully nothing happen uh !

jiayou for me for n level , im still so lazy to study ! ): jiayou ba ! ;D

LOVE babyEDSEL ! ;D

2010-09-17T10:02:00.000-07:00

hahaha !
i got myself a tumblr account !
www.yu-fenn.tumblr.com

(:

also , i got an ulcer ): huge one ! for like a week , it hurts like nobody business !
make me no appetite , dont feel like talking , dont feel like smiling or laughing !
shity shit !
haha !

2010-09-10T14:34:00.000-07:00

sorry papa ):
mama , love you . forgive me will you ?
no more next time , i promised

2010-09-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

ohh ! hahaha !
im so lazy to blog as n level is coming !
im still so lazy to study , even though im starting already .
i managed to study yesterday night when i was watching ai . and had at least know a few main point for ss for some topic .
ive decided , if i can do well for ss , i'll try my best to study geog . cos i dont want to waste my effort studying ss and get an Umbrella grade for combined humanities ;D
time is kinda packed for school days .
next monday till wednesday , i'll be having english paper , chinese and also SS .
all the best for me , and people who is also having their N level !

oh yes ,
before i leave this blog again !
iloveEdselEr

2010-08-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

泪流了，心痛了。
试着很多的理由让自己好过点。
但到最后，还是一样。
玉芬应该要放弃了吗？

2010-08-13T08:10:00.000-07:00

by the day you came down , stopped everything .
and if you realised something is gone, dont regret .
cos its all started from you .
something that you once cherish , you once LOVED and even NOW doubt do you ?
something that STILL cherish you more than you cherish it , something it once LOVE(without -ED) you and no doubt , even now .
something you once WANT to see , hoping to see every seconds and now throwing it aside alone and you went off to do something you CLAIMED THAT YOU LIKE it .
something that it still (not used to) see , hoping to see you almost every seconds , but been left aside .
something that you USED to talk to it gently like you wont want to lose it .
something that it still looking forward to that way of treatment towards it .
something that it heart was once broken that you USED to heal it .
something that it healed just for you , and just shattered into pieces for you too .
something that you USED to promise , and wont be broken .
something that know bout the fact , and still trying to move on .
something that you wont let it tear , and you claimed that when you see it , thats when your heartache .
something that tear , not wanting you to know cos it dun want you to have a heartache.

must it come to a point that it have to take a rest ?
my question to you is : "What if the something is gone ? Are you going to find it back ? Or just leave it ? "
the love you are giving , is lack of feeling

2010-08-11T23:44:00.000-07:00

baby edit de (:

2010-08-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

long time no chat bout my life nowadays ! ;D
okay , what i can remember now is bout last saturday 070810 !
alex jinyu birthday !

so , 070810
its a saturday , as usual ! went to school for dnt , touch up ! whatever i needa do ! after dnt , met up with baby at woodlands mart . went slack slack under his block , till like 3 plus in the afternoon . baby ,alex and kheng yuan went to cine and i went home .
feel bored , so called up cousin emma jio her out ! so me and second sister went to dhoby ghuat to meet emma ! me and sister reac first , so we went to but movie ticket 'old cow vs tender grass'. after that , we went to eat subway !
shopshop around ! jiu 720 , then go watch movie tilll 9 plus . went to daiso , bought lots of stuff but DAMN cheap ! after that , went secret recipe to have some cake cake ! hehe! then after that , baby called say he at kfc . ask me go down cos want cut cake for alex so go down meet baby first . met up , went outsie plaza sing , cut cake .
cousin emma and sister came over and join us ! after cutting of cake , alex ask us to join them in drinking ! then off we go , drink , drank , NOT DRUNK . then went home at bout 1 plus . reached home , bathe and sleep !

080810
made sushi & jelly for my babyLOVE !
090810
NATIONAL day ! me and emma was having national day mood at home , so crazily !
100810
ive forgotten =x

110810
today !
woke up at 0550 ,only get to sleep for like an hour plus in the night -.-
did necessary stuff ,met up with baby . did final rrevision as i ask baby to bring down my maths file ! till 0700 , went to school . ate popiah , after that morning assembly . and then , went up to hall . PAPER StART !
skipskip
school end , went back home . bathe & then went out to meet baby , and clique . till 6 , went back home to sleep and then after mummy cook finish . had dinner with mummy and sister , went to meet up with baby , alex and yongkiat !
on the way to alex house , baby and i is just like a crazy couple ! we punch each other hand , like painless liddat ! baby la , hit me so hard somemore at the sameplace lorhh ): then i punch him like nothing liddat one lorhh ! KNS !
we hit each other all the way from my house there till alex block ! so pain la ! wanted to act angry but then dunno why will laugh out damn loud , cannt tahan !
then baby say he see me , want angry cannt angry he very happy ! *pervert!
LOL
then we slacked at alex house till 10 . and then homoe sweet home !

LOVE baby *hearts

2010-08-09T05:35:00.000-07:00

baby ,

thanks for everything you did for me .

im glad to have you with me whenever i needed someone by my side .

this relationship has lots of obstacles , we have gone through much .

i think there's quite alot much for us .

lets make it through alright ?

i swear to be there for you when you needed someone just like you did for me .

iloveyou , babyEDSEL !

260410

2010-08-09T04:59:00.000-07:00

okay great ! dnt theory is coming , next few days !
i got the notes ,but im so lazy to take a look at it !
im still at the LALA mood !
motivation please !
my mind is telling me , STUDY STUDY STUDY ! its already the crucial time !
but my heart say this : ' come on its just prelim , relax one corner nia la ! one more month then study ! '
devil is tempting me , and im going towards devil , leaving far from the good !
how ?!

2010-08-08T11:38:00.000-07:00

baby is sucha sweetie today ;D
made sushi & jelly for hubby;D

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY , ALEX !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE ;D

2010-08-06T07:51:00.000-07:00

i saw these in twitter , and i totally agree about it .
- TheLoveStories

Some people are just like mineral water. It tastes nothing, but we can't live without. -@wilzkanadi #TLS

- TheLoveStories

When I give you my TIME, means I'm giving you a portion of my life that I'll NEVER get back. -@TirzaRoemokoy #TLS

yes, im feeling really down now ):

2010-08-05T22:06:00.000-07:00

fuck today ! -.-
cb day !
so nonsense , school is nonsense .
i thought after school will be better but NO !
nevermindd , i think just forget bout the every friday stuff .
im sick and tired of looking forward to friday's afternoon ,
cos there will always have something cropped out .
and no time for our own time !

readers , if you dun understand it . dun need to try understanding it .

pissed off !
DAMN !
its always Bs time more important Gs time .
Bs is always first then Gs -.-

2010-08-05T09:42:00.000-07:00

sister told me this , "he is the one you chose . "
my question is ,"but after days goes by , what happen to his attitude ? "

we were sweet , we were irritating , we were annoyed whatever is it ...

one minutes ago , we were okay .
next minute , we were not okay .

this is US .
this is what you see ,
but im crying in the night , hoping that we were okay .
i already dunno still got what way to change back your attitude before ,
in front of everyone , its me , they would say im picking on you .
but is it me who really want all this ?
okay,
maybe sometimes it started from me ..

nevermindd , its no longer the same .
something's wrong .
i'll try to fix it , hopefully i can .

TheLoveStories

In relationships the motto should be: "I can't hear you, SHOW me what you're talking about." -@youngwonder #TLS

2010-07-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

fuck you for spoiling my mood , you cb !
fuck you for taking my time off with my baby , you cb !
nb ! _l_

2010-07-24T04:49:00.000-07:00

okay ! im just back from meeting baby ! ;D
woke up at 0900 in the morning , did necessary stuff . take money from daddy but he only gave me 15bucks nia . met up with shane and kexin and then went to mac and meet up with gekmin & fengqing . and had breakfast ;D after that , bought milo for dummy ;D
went to school , have dnt ! dntdntdnt ~ all the way till 12 plus .. called baby but he never answer , so think he still asleep . so met up with jieliang and kokrong ! slack slack till baby wake up , then went to find baby ;D
waited for him under his block . after that , went slack slack with him till 7 ! and homed ! saved pictures in itouch ;D

2010-07-20T07:10:00.000-07:00

woohoo ~
i enjoyed yesterday school !

oh yes ! the whole school is commemorating racial harmony day ! and ya , the friday before this week , me , kexin , shane and gekmin went to maisarah house to borrow malay costume from her ! thats cool uh !

first time im wearing it , cos its might be the last year in ADSS , might be our last racial harmony . so yes ! so looking forward to school on that day , woke up 0615 , trying to spam call baby ! BUT he never answer lorhh ! and guess what ? he woke up at 7 ! so i immediately go meet him , then cab to school ! luckily not late ;D
photo-taking all the way ! enjoyed ! ;D
cool !

2010-07-10T11:16:00.000-07:00

The 43things a girl wish her boyfriend knew !

1.When you break her heart , the pain will never go way !
2.When she misses you , shes's hurting inside .
3.When she says it over , she stillwants you to be hers forever .
4.When she walk away from you madly , follow her .
5.When she stare at your mouth , kiss her .
6.When she pushes or hit you , grab her tight and dont let her go .
7.When she start cursing you , kiss her and tell her that you love her .
8.When she ignore you , give her your attention .
9.When she pulls away , pull her back .
10.When you see her at her worst , tell her that she's beautiful .
11.When you see her crying , just keep quiet and stay by her side .
12.When you see her walking her , sneak up hug her from her waist.
13.When she's scared , protect her .
14.When she lays her head on your shoulder , tilt her head up and kiss her .
15.When she steals your favourite clothing , let her have it .
16.When she teases you , tease her back .
17.When she doesnt answer you for long , reassure that she's okay .
18.When she looks at you with doubt , back yourself up with the truth .
19.When she says that she likes you , you means it more than you understand .
20.When she grab your hand , play with her fingers ,
21.When she bump into you , bump back into her and make her laugh .
22.When she tells you a secret , keep it safe and untold .
23.When she looks into your eyes , dont look away until she do .
24.Stay on phone with her even if she didnt say anything .
25.Dont let her have the last word .
26.Dont call her hot , gorgeoous or beautiful is much better .
27.Say you love her more that she could ever love you .
28.Argue that she is the best gf ever .
29.When she's mad , hold her tight and dont let go .
30.When she says that she's okay , dont believe it , talk to her about it becos she will rmb for a lifetime .
31.When you are talking to a female friend , pull her closer .
32.Call her at 0000 at any special occasion and tell her you love her .
33.Call her before you sleep and after you wake up .
34.Treat her like she's all matters to you .
35.Dont ignore her when she's out with you and your friends .
36.When she's bored and sad , hang out with her .
37.Let her know that she's important .
38.Be honest to her ,
39.After she reads this , she hopes that you will read it one day .

was google-ing aimlessly , saw this !

2010-07-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

was blog hopping around aimlessly ,
until i came to zoey' blog !
i saw a few point that i totally agree and love it ! so i copied !
& now , pasted !
see ~

-If a girl is clearly upset , dont just ignore it and hopes it go away . Talk to her and ask her about it . If she said , "nothing , imm fine . " Its obvious that its not . Never say "okay " , keep saying becos thats what they want .
-When she runs up to you crying , the first thing you should say is , "WHICH ARSSHH AM I KICKING TODAY ? "
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you .
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up .
- Tease her and let her tease you back .
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick .
- Watch her favourite movie with her even if the movie is real stupid .
- Give her your world .
- Let her wear your clothing .
- Kiss her in the pouring rain .
-If you're watching a movie , let her lay on your chest and put your arms around her .
-Leave her a cute text or note , especially when she's sad . This shows that you really care .
- If you are witha groups of other girls , make it seems like she's the only one you are interested in taking to .
-Girls is pretty but YOURS is PRETTIEST !

2010-07-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

its now 1036 already !
lets talk bout today okay ?
met up with baby to go to school , went to his block there ! i pass me a ' jiu chen gao ' nice nice to eat ! hees !

went to school , in class . study all the way uh ! cool right ? but still got sleep uh ! awhile nia lehh ! next next , sst did ss work with haolian , and ahhlye ! sst teacher is calvin ong -.- thot is casey ng , can listen song but no !! its calvin ong ! sian halfway lorhh .
had physics remedial ! did worksheet ;D very fast jiu 430 liaoo !

went to GO meet hongmin & co . chitchat there , then move to canteen ! so did continue doing physics worksheet while waiting for baby to finish his art at art room !
hongmin & co . went out to buy stuff ? i think , so i went up to findd buddy at the other table ! did worksheet tgt with lesile and buddy !

baby came out at bout 6 plus ! went to crescent , baby went bball and i staed in side shelter cos very hot ! home at 7 plus , bathe and then go have dinner with family ! and home at 950 liddat !
brought miki down ! go 755 meet baby ;D till bout 1020 liddat , baby send me and miki home ! and he went off to his block to meet up with hongmin & yongkiat ;D
so kiss goodbye baby , and im home !

(:

2010-07-04T02:28:00.001-07:00

Wee ~ I'm at bball Court now (: baby is chatting with friends now , I'm here sitting alone using my itouch to blog lorhh ! Kns -.- Now they talking bout maple , I dun even understand a shit sia

|<%^*+#@)&$?/! So tired can ! Haha . Tml no school , becos got the youth day on lieu ! (: Cool man (: So currently , finding for bball . My house de dunno fly where lorhh ! WTF ? Haha ! Stop here Liao ! Byebye

2010-06-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

haha .
school started like 2 days ago !! fun fun fun ! LOL
now every teacher of mine is say bout PRELIME PRELIM PRELIM , NLEVEL NLEVEL NLEVEL !
WTF sia ~ can i shoo off N LEVEL ?
lol !!!

okay , tell you people something cool ,

NG MEINA HAS GROWN FATTER !!! haha
fat ass ! _l_ still ask me blog bout her ;x

2010-06-25T11:24:00.001-07:00

ccb !
i have my fucking limit , pukimak !
dun push me to it !

knn

2010-06-25T11:24:00.000-07:00

ccb !
i have my fucking limit , pukimak !
dun push me to it !

knn

2010-06-25T11:06:00.000-07:00

happy two month anniversary with baby !

iloveyou !

2010-06-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

WEE~~~
i back to blog again ! back from chalet already ~ so fun okay ;D can see baby 24 hours ;D skip ! no photos also , cos really had fun lorhh ;D

today , baby came to my house at 10 plus . so early , i know ;) slack till 2 plus 3 , baby went to ahh gongg house , slept ! and miie too ;D wake up at 6 plus .

daddy bought food for me , ate . played itouch and then bout 8 , went to 755 meet baby ! slacked until 11 and then went home ;D miss babybaby NOW

2010-06-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

oh my godd ~
im having a headache again ! like WTH~ getting old liaoo larhh , abit abit headache .
=x
feeling kinda weak now , all over my body . like fire burning my head liddat , think having a sight fever . ):drank a cup of herbal tea that mummy boil one ...
skipped dnt today agn , was so damn tired , baby came my house at 11 plus . kinda early huh ? hees . baby promised miie today will come to meet miie earlier, cos ytd bo meet dao ! hees ;DDDD

baby came , pei miie chit chat ! till like 12 plus in the noon , and he fell asleep -.- so i go sleep also lorhh . at bout 3 +++ jiejie waked miie up , so both of us ordered KFC . also for babyLOVE , cos i heard baby tummy grumbling =x

wake baby up when food is here , but he seems to be like so damn tired . so let him sleep bout 10 mins more , went to chatchat with big sister . after 10 mins , went to wake baby up (: lazy baby ;D

we both eat our kfc , eat liaoo . clear stuff , chit chat with babyLOVE . after that , when we bothn goin out liaoo . mummy came home , so byebye to mummy and we are off ;D baby saw mummy again !!! LOL

went to 755 and slacked with yongkiat , cant contact the rest -.-at bout 7 , i think ? TUTU aka kukubird came to join us ;D woots ! slacked slacked , baby and youngkiat went bball with other people . then i sit there chat chat with tutu ! hees .

awhile , baby ended his game . so we continues to chit chat , hmmm , no , they chit chat . BOUT MAPLE -.- then tutu left . i forget what happen , then i say bout my past maple account . suddenly , babyLOVE & yongkiat get so agitated when they know i long time nv use the account le , and start asking me bout my username & pass -.- cos they want get the ringer ?or smth liddat , but sadly , i forget all the thing . baby scanned through my contact , see who got maple account and nv use for a year liaoo de , then baby called and asked for account and stuff . yongkiat TOO ! -.- omFg both like siao .

we left at 9 ! baby send me home , and he went home . i brought MIKI down to walk walk , and then homed , do homework ~ blahblahblah .

oh yarhh , i accidentally go bang the wall with my head . so pain man ):
i need sayang from my babyLOVE

okay , the end
bbyebye

misses edsel er

2010-06-11T10:09:00.000-07:00

im super pissed off now !!

put yourself in my shoe ! and see how you feel when being nelgected just becos of the stupidd fuckingg lame game you are playing RIGHT NOW !

2010-06-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

im sick & tired of quarreling with you .
as days goes by , you changed .
we used to share the same thinking and lots of things , but now ?
i seriously dunno what you thinking .
so many things had happened , i choose to believe in you again .
i really dun wann this r/s to be a tough one . i had enough , and i seriously dun wan to put this til the end . dun push me to that limit .

its only if you could changed back ...

ily,still

2010-06-10T03:24:00.000-07:00

ohh yarhh , and to add on to the previous post .

3 . dun take your loved ones for granted . when things happens , dun beg them to come back . cos things wont be the same .

4. time wont wait for you . cherish the time with your loved ones .

5. girls do not need a rich boyfriend , they just need a boyfriend who is always there for them .

2010-06-10T02:24:00.000-07:00

im feeling so sick and no one knows bout it .
rotting at home like a fucking bitch .
getting so pissed off now and no one cares -.-
and so what someoone cares ?
im no longer give a fucking shit to it , im no longer put any HUGE hope to it , im no longer going to care bout it !
seriously ,

this few days really pissed miie off like fuck ? its totally screwed up , be it relationship or family . just one word , FUCK YOU ! _l_

im really disappointed in everything _l_
i got a few facts that i wanna share bout :

1. human tends to change , no doubt . they dunno that they are changing , unless someone tell her/him . but when someone do not wan tell him /her . that person seriously need to reflect and think back how different was she/he from the past . cos this shows someone was damn dissapointed in that person . and also , readers . get this thing right into your head ! better get happy when someone control yoou or tell to you something that you gotta change , cos when they dun , it means they seriously dun give a fuck shit to you anymore .

2. if peopleA says that he / she can wait for your arrival to anywhere thay said . let me tell you this , peopleA , you jolly well double up cos a person paitence has it limits .

so FUCKING HELL reflect on yourself , people !

2010-06-08T09:27:00.000-07:00

i failed to be one that can be trust ...
all among them , its you

2010-06-04T10:46:00.000-07:00

So whAt's the fucking wrong with me now ? Feeling weird . And I miss you . Bye . I'm off to sleep , I think . MOODLESS !!!!!!!!

2010-06-01T10:10:00.000-07:00

its 0110 already man ! i just finish my homework ! so damn tiring cann .
okay , lets start from the start of the day .

met up with babyLOVE under his block at bout 7 plus , babyLOVE is so slow can . cos he over slept -.- and i waited for him like omFg ! cab-ed to school as we are running out of time . reach school , had motivational talk from mrs sabar ! she is so damn good man ! love her ! LOL
after the talk , mrs lai came to our class and bring us back to class . and she said that she will be taking us for english lesson for the rest of JAP ! her lesson really rocks okay , first english lesson that my class is quiet and pay attention to the lesson ;D

after english , is MT ! slept ~
and then , RECESS . ate with babyLOVE ;D and had SS , slept again! no idea why am i so tired ): for the two whole period ! and then maths ;D went to com lab , for maths quiz ! so fun . i got only 60% , and then just i did again i got 80% .

hees !
met up with babyLOVE at canteen , pei him eat and then ahh gongg send miie home le . ;D reached home , bathe and then went to bed for nap ! LOL . at bout 3 plus , kena wake up by cousins -.- so noisy ! chat chat awhile went back to sleep until 1730 !
baby called and went to fetch him ;D chatted with ahh chu also ;D send baby home , and then i went back home . blahblah .

baby came and slack at my house , channel 8 marathon ;D baby went off to 768 to eat at 10 plus , and then he reached home at 11 plus and slept at 11plus too . so i went to iron clothes and also homework ! until now !
its 0122 ! im off to bed alr ! byebye !

I LOVE AND MISS EDSEL !

2010-05-28T09:58:00.000-07:00

im now watching king kong @ channel 5 . its the second time i've watch it . its so wonderful ;D okay , my mood is so down down down .

im sorry to raise my voice at you , baby . ;'( iloveyou

2010-05-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

fucked up !
knn . ccb .

2010-05-26T06:33:00.000-07:00

so what now ?! blog la ! LOL .
went to school with my babyEDSEL ! ;D so happy to meet him . its our first month and wow wow , when i reach school . GMshorty is the first one to wish us , so sweet of her uh ;D lesson as per normal , before recess .

after recess , got 'use - our - hand campaign ' .
ball and i was assigned to clean the mt room . but i was separated with ballball , partner was a sec3 guy -.- he dun even know how to clean a table -.- i clean two row liaoo , he still at first row ! -.- wth man.
skipskip ,
got back report book , so nervous lorhh .cos mdm ruhaizah arranged the result slip from bad to good . make everyone so nervous uh . i got 7th in the class , quite happy . but not really , cos still not that good uh . stupidd hell , my combine humanities really sucks to the core lorhh . forever wont pass de ):
but if this result can remain , im happy enough . after that , watched youtube videos . all sorts of funny videos . makes everyone laugh like HaHA ! oh ya , mr bird ; yasir is feeling so low becos of his conduct . hope he's fine .same for buddy , but he scored well !!!

hmmm, went home and bout 4 plus , baby came over to my house . he gave miie a 'compo' haha . he write by his own okay , can see by the handwriting . so sweet of my babyEDSEL . its kinda long man . after that , baby want miie to close my eyes . then stretch out my hand , so he put the ring in my finger ~~ hees , happy la . I got a sweety baby . iloveyou .

and then , i passed him his present . cos for past few days , i lie to him that i only have one present for him ,which is the handmade keychain by miie . bought him teo spade tees , hope him like it uh . hees (:
baby left my house at 7 plus , he needa go home . so i ordered mac , something unbelievable i finished my double mcspicy by my own kay ! but i cant finish my fries=x hahaha . so now , im chatting with my baby online (:
yay !

ILOVEYOU , my baby baby .
happy one month !

2010-05-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

wee wee ~~~
im back . okay , im so fucking tired now lorhh . ytd night , slept at 2 plus . and todqay i woke up and 7 in the morning. shijie called miie and then he went back to sleep-.-
call him at 730 , he then wake up . so went to do my stuff . and went to meet him lorhh . both of us spam call baby like omFg , i called for like 30 calls . but he answered none !!! asshole , so we slacked under baby's block . hoping that he would wake up , but NO ): so we proceed to woodlands mart mac to have breakfast (: chit chat and everything .
after that , went back home cause both of us need the toilet urgently . and then, went to block 743 . he went to buy cigg , and went back to my house . ass him , conquer my bed liaoo , then pull away my blanket , dun allow miie to sleep . damn ass la !
baby came to my house at bout12 plus , and finally i can sleep but awhile nia . cos baby , jiejie and shijie talk until very loud ! baby went off at 3 , so i went to sleep . blahblah .
evening , mummy came back -.-
and the night is without my love love baby ):
still got 9 more mintues to our first month , but baby is asleep cos he is tired ):
so sad , prepared the msg at bout 2330 . when it reaches 2359 , i will read the msg again . and 0000 , i will send !!! wee ~~~

iloveyou , EDSEL ER JUN DE !!!!

2010-05-21T10:47:00.000-07:00

lets talk bout ytd and today okay okay ?
deal deal !!!

ytd ,
cabbed to school again with my babyEDSEL , lessons and blahblah . hmmm , okay . thankfully , i survvived through thursday without any troubles ! ;D so after school , went home to change and met up with KUKUNEHNEH at my house . we went to cwp and bought stuffs , eat and watch Shrek 4 , 3D de . quite nice . and shane is so asss that she realise FIONA' s ear looks like a spoon ! yarhh , and its true okay .maybe your can take a look at Shrek's wife ! hees (:
after movie , we continued our shopping and things is tempting miie like fuck man !i spend like 60 plus dollar that day . hahaa . went back to meet baby , but only for awhile . and byebye to baby le !

and today , went to school with baby again . cabbed again ! smack him , ohh yaarhh din attend POP today cos my NPCC shoe went missing ): so din go le . went to amk hub with ahh lye and kukunehneh again . shopping shopping and shopping bought quite a number of thinggs . ohh yarhh , i also bought my iTOUCH !! soo happy . it currently charging . 2 more hours to go lorhh (: hees . ok , im so tired now . din reallyy meet up with baby today , and im missing him so much now larhh ! howhow ???

EDSEL ER JUN DE , BABY !!!
IMISSYOU ):

2010-05-19T07:29:00.000-07:00

yo im back people !
im currently watching autumnn concerto ! the male lead is so handsome sia !! OMfG ! LOL . then the boy so cute lorhh . okay , back to today !
so as per normal , wake baby up . went to school with him , ohh yarhh. we cabbed to school , as it was raining in the morning .
lesson and blahblahblah . FT preiod , teacher gave out a dedication to family members . instead of miie dedicate to my family members , i dedicate to babyEDSEL , OGM shorty and also many friends (: so fun okay !

had fun in school today , MT lesson combine . watch show with my baby , soo nice until no one wants to go home when the bell ring .
after school , went to home to bathe . and then went out . blahblahblah ! this two days , baby have been accompanying me to bring MIKI down to pee and SHIT !! so sweet of him . hees (:

baby is at 755 now , im so bored now . im rotting now , im dying now ! LOL !!!!
byebye people!

feeling empty

2010-05-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

hey ho !!
im back . exam ended , normal lesson today lehh !
enjoyed lesson today (: catch up with friends and classmates , also get back certain subject's paper . correction and stuff . result was quite okay for miie . hopefully , that goes to the rest of my paper . i really hope so ...
starting of the day , met up with babyEDSEL . he's late :@ went to school , slacked in hall awhile before morning assembly starts . mdm koh had quite a number of stuff to tell the school . one is bout the Dr Goh Keng Swee things . kinda sad ya ..
hmmm, so after assembly had maths lessons . expected , get back maths paper ; surprising , i passed my maths paper 1 ! 49 / 80 im kinda shocked when i was told that i've passed my paper 1 . but im still happy larhh , ofcos . who wont be happy , when self pass its exam .
done correction , salam is the joker of the day . ass him . he make the class laugh like nobosy business larhh . hahahaa . only my class knows what happen .
after maths , had english lesson .
got back english paper 2 , also i din expect i would pass . i got 45/80 , ever since last year . i haven pass my english anymore . i also dunno what to say , but ya , i din expect so much for my MYW also . cos i din really study for it .
next , geog .
din recieve geog paper , instead we recieved geog class test -.- i got 10/15 for that . and then did correction while chatting with my haolianpo ! so fun so fun .
recess with my babyEDSEL ..
after recess , is DNT lesson !
got back paper again! mr soh split paper into 2 section 'pass' and'fail' . im in the pass section . and i got into the top second . its 57 / 70 (: haolianpo got 62/70 !! *claps .
she says that she feel like a pervert cos like she score too high . she's crazy ~~ LOL LOL LOL . again , we did correction . but have a lot of fun tgt with classmates and mr soh (: all the way till 1240 , we make our way to hall for assembly !
assembly is bout RoboPreneur 2010 . while there's robopreneur ongoing in school , students who are not involve will not go to school and stay at home to do our home based learning ! YAY*
ahhahahaha .
so happy . and the date so weird . 24/5, 25/5 , 27/5 . guess what ? 26/5 is anniversary with baby , BUT we have to go back to school for 'use - your - hand - campaign ' so funny lorhh !
ahahahhaa .
so after school ,
waited for my baby at the canteen ALONE , thanks to friend's companion at first . finally , hongmin came back to school to pei miie wait for baby . cos baby is doing his art (: after that , went to cresent and wait , while slacking with yongkiat and co .
until6 plus , baby and TUTU finally came out from school . left cresent at 6 plus nearly 7 , had a little quarrel with baby . TUTU accompanied miie , after that baby and i okay liao . i also dunno where tutu went to le =x
went to baby baibai stuff , and then went to minimart with baby . he bought ice cream pencil for miie (: and he send miie home , after that , he went back home .
baby came to findd miie at 9 . until 10 he left -.- one hour nia . im missing him now lorhh ): so bad man ! he haven even text miie lorhh . bitchy baby i have . ):

2010-05-15T11:55:00.000-07:00

hello hello , im back .
today i woke up at 12 plus plus , called babyEDSEL . he was still sleeping like a pig , so i carried on with my bathing and all . sister and cousin get ready , and off to meet up with xiaopang . and to cwp to ask for sakae prices today (:
after that , met up with joseph at interchange . train-ed to bishan , circle line to serangoon and purple line to kovan . met up with emma at kovan bus stop , and then have lunch at sakae . baby was still sleeping like a pig by then .
proceed on to kovan melody , kenn BEAR keep disturbing miie . and xiaopang jumped into the pool for several times , and he splash the water at us . -.- put our legs in the pool but when the security guard look at us , we took our legs up ;x ahahaha !
pengyam and his friends came over , and baby finally is awake larhh ! ;D misses him . oh yarhh , anyway , pengyam change damn lot lorhh the appearance and all . OMG -.- sms-ed all the way with my baby (; and then si en korhhkorhh , says he is coming down ! yay ! long time no see korhhkorhh (:
after that , went to play pool not miie . baby say want teach miie till now ): and then , play joseph i touch . and when si en reached , played with korhhkorhh iphone (: and then , emma's friend psp . till 9 plus , pei pengyam go makan .
bout 10 , cabbed back to woodlands to meet baby tgt with si en and zhengfu . went to fitness corner nearby baby house , ahh gongg and tutu was there too (: not long after , hongmin , yongkiat and co . came over too (: slacked around . played with korhhkorhh iphone games and played with my baby .
till 1130 , baby send miie go take cab . and then he went back home for his mama birthday , cabbed to 888 then ask taxi driver to wait for miie . so i faster buy , and rush back to cab . cabbed home , bathe . watch show , shijie and co . came over to my house and play mahjong !
and its 0313 now , my baby is still playing his idiot dota ! im so bored now ~~~ currently watching 下一站，幸福 ; autumn concerto ! nice , and sad la . asshole ): im waiting for baby to end his dota match lorhh .

tiring day !
misses baby!

2010-05-13T08:57:00.000-07:00

WA ! long time no post liaoo lehh .
babyEDSEL complain , saying that my blog is rotting . well so is his !
LOL . im going to help him post later . (:
anyway , maths paper CMI ! cfm fail uh . no point studying so damn hard lorhh !

ok , im lazy to post le .
byee !

imissyou , i loveyou

2010-05-08T12:43:00.000-07:00

ohh man ! im finally back at home man (:
have the whole day with my babyEDSEL today (:
slacked at 755 , baby and ah gong played carom with two stranger . so ps man ! ohh yaa , went ahh gong house at 9 plus , carom and movie marathon (:
keep falling asleep at ahh gong house while watching movie ! baby covered miie with blanket
*sweets
and baby send miie home at 3am !
im so tired , now off to bed . and baby has turned in !

2010-05-05T07:46:00.000-07:00

hello hello! ;D
went to school as per normal ! studied all the way , throughout the whole school day! every subject okay ! and even chinese okay (: those in my class , its so unblieveable for miie to study uh ! ahahhahaha .bobian , MYE is really round the corner lorhh ! faints !
and now ,
i survived through tuesday and wednesday ! tml is thursday , another long day for the week . will try to liven up the day , hopefully uh =x
after school , went back home to bathe and everything met up with babyEDSEL . met up with ahhgongg and co . at mac to study all the way till 8 .
went to 755 , all play bball . except for miie and douglas lorhh . we chatted , and he only know how to listen to rock songs larhh . no love songs for him de -.- but so sad , my phone dun have those kind of rock songs . so ahahhaa , he gotta listen to my songs .
baby play bball until he damn shag , feeling so unwell , sweat like omFg ! let waterfall liddat sia ! but i still love you baby lorhh !

baby :
i know nowdays , we have much quarrel do to my mense ? my attitude whatever ? im sorry and iloveyou okay ?? you post so slow lorhh . after you read this , faster tag miie okay ? study tml uh !
WoAiNi 260410

2010-05-03T08:04:00.001-07:00

FUCK !!!

IM FUCKING PISSED OFF NOW !!!!

BLOODY SHIT ! CCB

iloveyou ,edsel

2010-05-03T07:32:00.000-07:00

NOTE ;

something really shock miie like hell ! SHANE ACTUALLY SEND MIIE A anniversary msg ! she remembers it ! for the past 1 year plus , she has always forget bout it but today . SHE REMEMBERED IT !

so today , i woke up at 10 ! morning called baby ! and then went to do some stuff ordered by my mummy ! and went to bathe (; after that ,, my babyEDSEL jiu reach my house le. helped him to iron his bloody formal shirt ! and then , he went to change . and then , went down to meet cliques at 755 . proceed to yishun safra , pool-ed all the way till 4 plus 5 .

and then , went to eat laksa . super nice . babyEDSEL's treat ! went back to woodlands , ohh yarhh . have some little quarrel with my babyEDSEL , but iloveyou baby kay . ahahhahaahhahaha .

reached woodlands , slacked at 755 ! and baby sent miie home at 8 plus (: and till now , baby haven text miie . im angry alr ! :@

2010-05-02T01:51:00.000-07:00

i've tried so hard to prove to everyone out there that , i've start a new life and the person i would want now is you .
and now ?
just becos of a wrong msg , you started ...
just becos of a " what for being tgt , with no trust " , you claimed that i wanna a break up ..
but you ever think how i feel when everything you start all this ?
you claim that you love miie , but everytime you like to say bout that .
have i ever say bout you ?
and now , you say you dunn wana text alr .

thanks to you , my tears is free-flow again ...

2010-05-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

i found this thing pretty interesting in michelly girlfriend blog .
see uh .

If you argue with him, you're hard-headed. If you're quiet, he don't care.
If you call him, you're too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.
If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves.
If you don't fuck him, you're a tease. If you do, you're easy.
You tell him your problems, he says you're irritating. If you don't, he says you don't trust him.
If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it's because he 'cares'.
If you break a promise, he doesn't trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it's because he had to.
If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance.
They're basically the same.
Guys drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy.
When guys are in love they become poor; when girls are in love they become pretty.
Guys can forget, but can't forgive; girls can forgive but can't forget.
When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl.
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy.
Guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last.

true isnt it ?

2010-05-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

wow wow wow ! im back ! have no time to post ytd yeahh .
okay , lets talk bout ytd first .
after exam in school , everyone went home first and meet up at ahh gongg house ! guess what ? we are celebrating for yongkiat's advanced birthday ! WEE~~~
okay , so bbq started at bout 6 plus . flour time and everything , always lack of water lorhh . then bobian have to keep buying .thanks to have bookchai and birthday boy to help us to buy if not really cmi !
okay , so bbq ends at 12 plus .
ahh gongg , miie , babyEDSEL , yongkiat , hongmin and fengqing TUTU went to 755 slack . had some quarrel with babyEDSEL , im sorry okay ! iloveyou ! went home at bout 1 plus going 2 and then bathe and went to bed !

hahahahaha .

today ,
woke up at 8 plus . reached ah ma house at 9 plus! ITS COUSIN MELISSA wedding ! wonderful ! congrats yeahh . ohh yarhh anyway , we went to the church at bout 10 plu everything started at 11 . the newly weds is so sweet yeahh ! ahahhaa . after the church thingy , cousin melissa actually booked bus for us to go to Four Season Hotel ! and we reached there at bout noon , had buffet lunch and all , had a great time . what i can say is : ITS GRAND THERE ! i really love the ballroom alot kay . cousin melissa also invited the dunno what DJ to the wedding .and they had sonehow a little singing or i should say a mini concert ? haha .overall thumbs up ! ohh yarhh . not to forget ! the strawberry chocolate fondue is nice (: haha .
after that , things end at 5 plus . uncle sun send miie and jiejie home . went to meet up with babyEDSEL and co . at 755 slack and went to ahh gongg house . played and dinner there . and im home at here ! @ 11 pm !

bye people .
and also , best wished to cousin melissa and henry ! (: cheers

* pictures to be update soon